Call it Ennui
So. Ennui.
Better than boredom, because it's French. It sounds so - - - sophisticated.
It's not "I'm bored with my wonderful life."
Au contrair, alors, non!
Instead, "I have ennui."
Boredom implies there is something lacking - something missing.
Whereas ennui is something you Have;
something whole and complete in it's French Word angst.
C'est tres belle. A beautiful thing.
I suffer from it now and then - I sometimes compare my life to that of my more adventurous or affluent friends, and find my life a bit dull.
Oh, what I might have done, what I might have been - oh, the lost potential of my possible self....
So many places I'll never see, so many people I'll never be.
But my own here and now, well, it's pretty great, really.
My wonderful husband, beautiful son, and loving family
beat any other version of me without them. . .
And yet....
Maybe...
Yeah. Ennui.
